PERFECT GAME

I managed to talk to a new friend about partnership in life. She said the other person expects perfectness in everything and has so much 'self actualization' in all walks of life. He demands high standard even in his children. Then I started to understand what had actually happened in our life. If I could text everything here.

That perfectness makes a person lonely. No one wants to be your company. Somehow now I don't regret what had I done even though walls talked.

LIFE IS NOT THAT SWEET

Life is not that sweet every time
But one have to keep on going
Struggling most of the breadth
Trying to please others I suppose
After all you don't live by yourself
You knew very well
you will die alone
Nothing sweet and simple in life

LIFE WITH MY THREE M'S

Ita in UITM

Since staying in our own home and having to drive 82 km to and fro to get to work, I really love weekends. I am waiting for weekends like small kids getting candies from parents. I don't know is it a sign of old age or tiredness. In fact I did thought of countdown to stop working now even though I never bother about it those days. I just wish I can cope life.

It seems life is just like a circle. More than six years ago, all the five of us stay together in this house. I love it. I have all my kids nearby. They were young then.

Then in July 2003 Malik studied in Johore Bahru, I left with two.

In that late 2003 we moved to Semashur, the two kids followed us. In January 2006 Ita left us for SM Teknik Seri Manjung, Perak for two years. In May 2006 Ucin left us for KMPP, Bertam for one year. (From May 2006 to end of 2007 - Malik was in Johore Bahru, Ucin in Bertam, Pulau Pinang while Ita in Seri Manjung Perak) We didn't have even one of them.

Malik finished his diploma in late 2006. He refused to stay with us in Semashur because he wanted to work in KL. After all we have this house for him to stay. Ucin then entered UITM Shah Alam in July 2007. Ita came home after her SPM in that late 2007 but she went to JMTI in Butterworth in January 2008 for three months, later in May the same year she went to KMK, Changloon for a year. She finished her martic in April this 2009 and joined Ucin in UITM Shah Alam last month.

Now I have Malik at home. The two of them are in UITM. This time we are lucky because they are near home.

KL LIFE

I have stay in KL actually since January 1987 when he was transferred to CDC, Jalan Duta. At that time we only had Malik and we rented a house in Jalan Jaya 2, Taman Jaya, Bandar Tun Razak. By October 1987 we moved to the present house in Taman Midah, Cheras, Kuala Lumpur.

Then by late 2003 (sometime October 2003) we had a change of routine when we moved to Hulu Yam Selangor, about 44 km from here. We were all alone there except the staff. We used to come back here almost every weekends in 2004. Then we didn't have the time to visit here anymore because the kids were studying everywhere - it seems at that time. Like in 2006 Ita was in SM Teknik Seri Manjung, Perak (201 km from Semashur), Ucin was in KMPP about 400 km further north in Bertam Pulau Pinang and Malik was still in KIJ Johor Bahru, further south. Our weekends were busy visiting them but not so for Malik.

Well the food here is expensive. A plate of nasi goreng and orange juice cost me RM 8.00. I considered them expensive compare to Ulu Yam when we can have lunch RM12.00 for four people (without the drinks).